North Carolina

I am here in North Carolina with my brother and his family. Having a blast!!!!! Aaron is so big...and soooo cute!!!!! It was a long 20 hour drive here in the extended cab of the F150. It was a very cramped ride, we left at 4:30 in the morning on Friday and didnt get to our hotel in North Carolina until about 1:30 Saturday morning. We didnt stop because we were towing a truck here to give my brother our old green truck, you know now that we have three new vehicles :) Well going to go chill with the family.....

Totally excited!!!

Ok so tomorrow morning I am leaving at an ungodly hour to go see my nephew for his first bday!!! I am so excited to get to see him and my brother and Gabrielle. The only sad thing is I am going to be gone for five days, and will miss Todd very much but thank goodness we have cell phones!!! ;) what would we doe without them!!!! It has been a rough week though, with trying to get some stuff done on the house before we leave and trying to get some sleep (which is hard to do around here) and having to work every day this week at 6am to 1 pm. That was a rough schedule!!! I was so tired every morning, I did have a pick me up when Todd brought me breakfast the other day at work. That was so sweet of him. Speaking of Todd, he has been so great he comes over and helps with the house and is always there when I need him to be.... its so nice after all I have been through to have someone there when I need them.

I also got back in touch with an old friend of mine from way back when and its been really awesome to talk to her every day and catch back up on life with her and her family. God has been so good lately to me and my family. I also got another car last week which is very exciting!!!!! I have been car less since the flood and having to juggle cars with my parents and that has been a challenge but now we dont have to anymore!!!

I start my first week of college when I get back from North Carolina, I am half excited and half nervous...LOL I have never been to a class where you get lectured...Its gonna be an experience thats all I can say!! My friends I graduate with have all started school and I am the last one to start so I have been hearing stories from them all week. Which doesnt get me excited.... oh well I must go to school so wish me luck!!!!

Now I must go get ready to leave ad spend time with Todd and some other friends before I leave!!!

OH RATS!!!!!

Well I dont like rats to begin with and the other night I had an encounter with one....at 12:30 at night!!!! It was very scary I was just layin on my airmattress and heard a noise got up to see what it was and oh my a rat goes running across the floor!!!!!! I screamed at the top of my lungs and ran to my parents!!! It was an experience I pray that NEVER happens again. So needless to say i didnt sleep in there that night, Dad did and I slept with mom. LOL

Not so good....

So yesterday was good, today, not so muchy. I started off almost late to work, only cuz I had to be there at 6am. Then I had a job interview at two...I got off at 1. My boss wanted to keep me later but I told him I really needed to leave on time, I left a little later than i wanted but thats ok, I got pulled over for the 4th time on my way to my interview :( thankfully i didn't get another ticket, I did my interview, which went well and got some cookies from Todd :) Then on my way home some guy almost rear ended me because traffic came to a dead halt. Oh while I was on base, I dropped my phone on the concrete and broke one of my buttons off and had to put it back on, good thing i have insurance on that thing! So today was just not my day. I am glad its almost over. Maybe tomorrow wont be so bad LOL

I cant beleive it!!

I just couldn't believe my morning, I got up and decided I should really call about my ticket that I had gotten a few weeks ago and I was totally expecting it to be very expensive but it turns out it was only $188 plus my court fees that I have to pay. That was a blessing and then I decided to find out how much my books for college would be and I only have one book and its only $137.75, that was exciting also! Then I had applied for another job on Saturday and they called me back today and want to do an interview tomorrow! I was just so excited!!!! Then I went to lunch with Todd today. It has been a very good day! Hopefully it will stay good when I go to work :) Here lately it always gets bad when I go to work. But that's ok, cuz I don't think you can make this day go bad!!!

Getting better all the time....

There is this song that says, "Its gettin better all the time." I have had that song in my head lately. After all this with Chris I decided that I couldn't take the lies anymore and did not want to live my life with that in my relationship. After a nice long talk with my adopted big sis, Shelly Paulk, I decided I couldn't live in that mess of a relationship. I had made up my mind I was just going to walk away and put it behind me, let the past be the past and go on with life. I wasn't going to answer his calls or text messages. I was doing good. I told Todd, a guy I met from Chris's flight, I was done and thanked him for telling me the truth. Well that was on Friday night and then on Saturday night he kept calling me and texting me. I told him not to call me back and please leave me alone. Well he didn't get the message. So to make a long story short I had several people tell him to leave me alone. I knew that if I talked to him or I saw him I would get weak and take him back and that was not what I wanted. He was borderline harassment that night and finally my dad called him and asked him to leave me alone or he would call his 1st Seargent. He has finally left me alone, I think.

I have done so much thinking through all this. I was very afraid that he might get stupid and come try to find me, I spent alot of time praying the past couple days, that God would keep me safe and keep him from doing anything stupid. I began to wonder how people live their entire lives without believing that there is a God. How can you go through what I have went through not only with Chris but with my arthritis and have no hope of anything. How do they live with cancer and death and all the things that life gives us without hope? That is how I get through, I have hope that my God will supply all my needs according to his riches in glory. So why should i even fear that Chris would do something I mean I have God, he wont let anything happen that isnt supposed to happen.

Well I now must say it has been a long road and it is not even close to being over, but I have hope that God will be with me the entire way, every step.