Oh my,my my.......

Well lets see, since I wrecked my car the insurance decided to total it, which is a big BUMMER!!!!!!! I am now car less again and will be for a very long time. I don't have the money to buy another car or can even think about buying another car. I am upside down on my loan I had taken out so now I have to pay that off. I have debt to my parents that I must pay off....OH yeah I almost forgot the speeding ticket and school costs!!! I have come up with a payment plan but I don't know how well that will work. I started a new job this week. I am now working at the Bx on the Air Force Base here in town. I am liking it so far. It is much better than my other job that's for sure. Its much more convenient for me at this point in life. It is right down the street from school and across the street from Todd. So it all works perfectly. Hopefully and prayerfully I will be able to get out of this debt I am in and be able to spend money..... I miss spending money :(

Todd and I are officially dating!!! I love to be able to say he is my boyfriend!!! He makes me sooo happy I can't even explain how much. The fact that I don't feel like I have to work at keeping him is wonderful. Even sometimes I still have that fear that the smallest mistake will drive him away but I must keep reassuring myself that it wont. I can be "me" around him and all he will do is smile and laugh at the stupid little things I do. Or he will just call me a dork. This week he is home in South Carolina :( I really wish I could have gone with him but due to my new job and school, and that speeding ticket I mentioned earlier, I couldn't go. I was very sad that he is going to be gone a whole week but he planned this trip before he met me so I can't complain. I just hope he has fun with his family, and misses me :) He is still supposed to be going to Iraq in December of this year, but you never know with the military. They change their mind all the time. But we as a couple are doing great. We couldn't be happier!!!!

School is going good. I took my first quiz last Friday and my first math test today. We will see how they turned out sometime this week. I hope I did good!! I haven't fallen down any more stairs lately, I hold onto the rails now!! It has been a little challenging getting back and forth from school and home and work but we are making it work. I have Todd who sometimes brings me home or we will just hang in between classes or between class and work. Which makes getting around much easier. I have been walking a lot lately though.

Well I have had a very busy day and another very busy day ahead of me tomorrow. i have to work go to school and go back to work. Sounds fun doesn't it??

Two weeks....

Ok so two weeks ago I finally got another car. I was so excited. Well the top left picture was when I got it. The other ones...are when I wrecked it on Saturday. I was very sad. I was on my way to work that afternoon when there was another wreck past the light I was stopped at. I did not know that there was another wreck. I just though traffic was bad. But the lady in front of me had stopped so I stopped, well she let go of her breaks and began to move forward. I let go of the clutch and gave it some gas and she hit her breaks I slammed on mine and next thing I know I had hit her. I was in total shock. I WAS SO SCARED. I was shaking and in a little bit of a panic. I got out and looked at the damage. I wanted to cry but then I knew I shouldnt so I held it in. The lady asked if we call the cops I said "yeah, but I am calling my dad first" I called dad and thankfully he was down the road on his way to Lowes. He said he was on his way so I got back in the car and sat there. Then I realized I needed to call work and tell them what happened, so I was standing by the car on the phone with work when I turned around and saw my uncle, I completely lost it. I began to cry and couldn't stop. I asked him where dad was and he was right behind me. The cops got there and we moved the cars out of the road and they did the report and all that stuff.

After I calmed down and collected myself I decided I should go to work. I did but it was a long night. I was in alot of pain from my neck and was just very sad. I called mom and told her my neck hurt and she told me to take Tylenol and try to hold off till Monday when we could go to t he doct. Well I tried, I was supposed to go back to work on Sunday Morning but I called a friend and asked her to go in for me cuz I hadn't slept cuz I couldn't get comfortable. I told my mom I couldnt go to work and she began to try to get me into the doctor. It took awhile and finally I went to the ER. I was there till 1:00 in the afternoon. That was the first time I went to the ER and hopefully the last. It was a very long day.

Today I went to class and took the car to a body shop for the insurance adjuster to look at it and hopefully get it fixed. It will take a while because I dont have the money to fix it right now and have many other things to pay for as well. Prayerfully I can get all this stuff done soon.

Second day (9-5-08)

Ok so yesterday was my second day of school and it went well until I left for my math class. I was walking to the stairs and my phone had a text from Candace so I slid the phone open and as I stepped on the top step my feet came out from under me!!!! I then bounced down the stairs.. my shoe came off and went down the stairs and so did the phone!!!! I tried to catch myself but there was nothing to grab onto. So I fell. When I got to the bottom I looked around and thought to myself...."OH My I am soooo glad no one saw that!!!" LOL My second day of college and I fall down the stairs, I though I was done falling down stairs when I was like 15. Oh well needless to say it really hurt. I twisted my ankle and hurt my back and my butt. Today I am very sore and good thing its Saturday!!! My phone is messed up I think cuz now it is doing weird things, but I have insurance on it!!!!

The journey that never ends....

Ok so most kids think that when they graduate high school that they are done with school and that they never use those skills again.....WRONG!!!!!! Today I started my first day of college, it wasnt a full day because that will be tomorrow...... But still as I was sitting in class he would put a problem on the board and talk his way through the problem, well about halfway through his speech, I was already done with the problem and was sitting there prying I had the right answer! I was right on all of them except two, which I think is pretty good for a first time college student.

I want to just take a moment to thank all those for getting me where I am. Mom, it was really weird to be in class without you! LOL. You have been my teacher from day one and now I am all grown up and you were not there. It was very weird. But if it were not for you I would have never been able to do those problems, Heck I wouldnt even be in college. You have been such an inspiration to me all through my life and I hope that one day I will be as good as a mom as you have been to me and my brothers. Life has not been easy but you have been there through each and every day of my life even when you think you have failed that is when you have succeded the most in my eyes. I love you more than anything in the world.

Dad, you are by far the most awesome dad anybody could ask for. You have also been there from day one, paying for anything I needed for school all the way up to graduation, and even now sometimes LOL. I know that sometimes you feel like you have not been the best dad ever but I want to tell you that you have done a great job. If I needed help in anything you have been there and always give me good Godly counsel and that is what makes you the best. I love you dad and never think for one second that you are a failure cuz that is the last thing you could ever be.

Dan and Rob, I love you guys. I couldnt have asked for better brothers! You have been there when I needed someone to talk to. Even if it was one in the morning. You have encouraged me and pushed me to strive and helped me make the right decisions, that I will love you always for!

Friends, you are the bomb! I love all of you and thanks for helping me get to where I am. We are all on a journey and mine is about to take a turn and I think it is for the best. I thank each one of you for making my never ending journey fun and enjoyable.

today I am a new college student, I have a new car and a guy that is incredibly awesome, I know I said that bout the last one but I really mean it this time, I know he would give the world to me if I asked. So now as I go on my journey I will keep you posted how it goes!!!